He was a Good Boy, he really was.

I parked my car yesterday and everything was fine.

Then, Popdigr drove my car to town, cuz his is in the shop.

Today I walk out to my car to put the top down so it'll be habitable when I'm ready to go somewhere, and there's a foot-long tear/break in my rear bumper cover, right on the corner. I noticed it right away cuz that bumper cover was cherry, damn near perfect.

And nobody knows nothing about nothing.

Now I need both bumper covers.

And now I'm grr.

That is very grrrr.

You can customize it with two black ones. There are people that repair those things, I had one repaired when none were available anywhere.

Irritating.

I just opened my mouth and started to turn my head to ask beest something .... like he was in the kitchen right behind me just tidying up and getting the dishwasher on before heading to bed which was how it was at this time of night. I suspect this will never stop, I need to find a way to deal with it better. 2.5 years. I've got my head around most of the stuff, but these unbidden moments....

A lot of years of habit to untrain, it will take time. Eventually on the rare occasions it does happen it'll make you smile.

I'm sorry for the unexpected reminder. For what it's worth, I think you're dealing with it in exactly the right way. It's a good thing when the grieving starts to ease a bit, and the happy memories get to take back over for just a second here and there.

the stuff I've gotten my head around is (some of) the practical stuff, and it isn't fun. And thinking "oh I'll ask..." .... fuck. But when I'm off guard it ... yeah

I had a brief dream respite for the last few months, but he's back.... Just mundane every day life anxiety dreams..... and for a while it was just me. and sometimes it still is. The only resolution is dawn either way.

I have never woken expecting to find him there, though. So there's that. That would be horrible(r), I think. But maybe that's because his side is full of clean laundry waiting to be put away and a multitude of pillows to try and help with my rapidly aging body randomly needing support in weird places in the night :D

My son, He is suffering from fever.

What's a bumper cover?

It's the, usually gray or black, plastic or vinyl piece that covers the actual, structural steel bumper.

Visible on both of ends of m'little Cherry Bomb here.

Below the damn cat.

Okay so maybe I'm focusing on something really really small because of all the really really world changing crap that is going on today. That being said can someone please explain to me how coffee can be crunchy.

you could freeze it?