[jaguar]

Serious depression and panic attacks for two years, worked though the causes and they went away.

Why do you think you respond the way you do? What started it? Think about where you have them.

I know a number of people that think about them a very different way. A kind of natural warning system, crowded places, fluro lights jammed with ads, why shouldn't you panic? It's an aggressive atmosphere. To turn to a drug is hardly as effective as sitting down, meditating on what you need and acting to get it.

When you have a pain attack in a natural environment, with friendly people, let me know. We've created environments that aren't good for us, we live in ways that stifle our minds and then we wonder why some crack like a fucking egg. You've been on drugs for long enough it would be hard to say whether you're really in a position to judge what normal emotions are anymore.

Paxil works by detaching you from your own emotions, by dampening natural responses to stimuli, you think a cold sweat is the only thing being suppressed? How would you know. It works the same way as Prozac, blunts most of your frontal lobe, it's not some kind of magical surgical precision, it hits everything.

Do you come across like that? I couldn't tell, I don't know how you've changed.