Splode , dude I can't tell you how sorry i am for you haveing to whitness such events .
My mother died of pancreatic cancer on 12/26/96 . That was with out a doubt the most fucked up , worst thing i have ever had to deal with in my life .
I sat down and typed out the whole story of her life as i knew it , good and bad , crying the whole time , it made me feel better , well some better .
NO i don't have a copy. I printed it out , said my good bys and burned it ,and deleted the file . It was no where as elaquent as you, but it made me feel a little better .
Know this though , Conner , or Conners spirit knew you ALL were there , and I am sure it helped him get past the scary parts knowing that he had every bodys support !!!!!