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cjj - I hadn't thought far enough to know what or *if* I want anything from the man at all. Mostly, I think I'm just bitter because he took it on the lam, never having any responsibility for what he'd wrought. He never paid a dime of child support, and only showed up over the years when he could make an entrance, a splash. We were pretty damn poor, he was pretty damn well-off most of his adult life (well, not now, but most of it).
I guess it just chaps my ass that he didn't have the fortitude to be less than 100% selfish with his life. My life is rife with things that, given a reasonable choice, I'd rather avoid and go off hiking or joining a rock band or something, but then I would be a person of very little substance. Then, one of my kids would eventually write something nasty about me.
Not the legacy I wish to leave. Not the way I wish to work out my karma.
I think it all really boils down to sour grapes in the end, doesn't it?
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