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Originally Posted by Catwoman
That's not true love that's true fear. I feel for the cats.
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I disagree. It's not fear. It's resignation. It's deciding that life's not worth the pain of continuing.
All the 'if only's keep running though my head. I think the biggest one is if only there were pain medication that actually worked well enough and didn't cause so many detrimental side effects. . . well, then getting old wouldn't be quite so terrible.
I hope that such a medication exists by the time I get old (hell, <i>now </i>would be nice, too...), or I might follow that same route. Having suffered through a helluva lot of back pain already puts me at a level of understanding for making a decision like that. (I thank vanity so very much for corsets!)
I feel pretty damned useless. I do keep encouraging my boy-child to follow in his dream of becoming a scientist. Maybe someday he'll make a difference at some of these things that I am useless for.
Ok, yeah, I'm rambling. I'll shut up now.