[jaguar]

Fair call, I've had a shit of a week and I'm running on empty so I guess I'm more than a little bit bitchy right now. However (you were waiting for it), vagueness aside Christianity followed seriously tends to have a pretty fair bias on people's opinions on this stuff in a number of different ways, I think i was just looking for attitudinal roots. Call it a bad habit combined with a bad mood.

I think you're still missing the point. Being an astronaut or a rock star isn't about the fame, it's about kicking ass, being the best and knowing it. Internal, not external. Cat can confirm/deny this one but personally I find few things more scary or offputting than mediocrity, either i do something and am in the top X, .X, .0X percentile or I don't bother, it's both a curse and a blessing. I think Contessa might be the same.