[mrnoodle]

Dude. get over it. You can't fuck up his life. There's nothing you could do that would remotely affect him one way or the other (there's assault and murder, but that's counterproductive). Make him as much of a non-entity in your mind as you are in his. Rejoin humanity and stop wallowing in dog shit.

You're afraid of feeling nothing, aren't you? Well, you're going to have to, at least for awhile. Suck it up, do it. End of story.

I'm quickly running out of empathy here. How many times can someone walk up to you and say "Look, I hit myself in the head with a hammer" and you stop feeling sorry for them?

end. it.