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Originally Posted by limey
This is like pulling teeth ... go on, give us a little more information so we can give you a little more support ...
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I've made the decision to give it one more shot, flying in the face of what everyone has said to me. I know I am just an anonymous woman on a bbs, but thank goodness I have a place that I can be anonymous but still share my pain and find some TLC. My challenge will be to trust him and try not to treat him differently than before. I unfortunately have several life changing events taking place at the moment and adding this to the mix doesn't help. I have just shut down, but I cannot compartmentalize being cold and numb inside. I have to be that way with everything right now until I get through these life changes. Am I making any sense? I'm exhausted and scared and somewhat miserable, but there is so many other things at stake in my life right now I cannot let my bf or the possibility of having a total breakdown ruin or diminish the other great things that are happening. I just have to shut everything off inside me until I get through the next few weeks.