She's probably all fucked up in the head right now - and while you might think you're the exception, don't be disillusioned. Watch out for yourself - she's not intentionally trying to hurt you, but whatever crazy shit she gets into in the coming weeks will make you feel like a total turd for having bought into it. Love does funny things to your head. And women are nuts. (consensus?)
I went through this earlier this year. Totally fell in love with a married coworker, settled for becoming a really good friend instead. Then she split up with her husband and naturally I was the next stop. The whole time I knew exactly what was going on (that I was the rebound guy) but I couldn't handle it. Too hard to have a taste but then not have the whole thing. We were both depressed and it sucked. Ironically, I've been through this before, but this time I ended up moving to another country.
Up to you whether you want to wait for the fallout to settle. Try to keep your expectations low, if you do. Mine was a bittersweet ending - the week before I left (which was a month ago) she showed up and everything came pouring out. Spent my last three days with her but still got on the plane. We promised to find each other in a few years.
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Gone crazy, be back never.
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