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OMG! I thought I was totally alone in all of these thoughts of mine till I read bullitts post on page 1. I was reading about ME! - that is exactly how I am! A flourescent light, a bug buzzing in the next room, a fan that whirrs off balance. . . hyper hearing . . . As I grew older I learned some coping mechanisms that work for me - like making lists if I have more than 2 things to buy or do. The best part was the "hyper-focus" Thats the best description and the most frustrating part. Why can I totally focus in to certain tasks, block everything else out and be incredibly productive at times and not at others? This still drives me nuts.
About 3 years ago my son was diagnosed with ADHD too and they put him on meds for it - as a show of solidarity I agreed to take them with him. I felt no different with respect to the distractions. I must say though, that I no longer felt happy or content anymore I mean it took the bottom spectrum of negative emotions away, but in the process removed the true happiness and joy away as well - leaving me with moderate feelings about everything. Never really happy or sad - just sort of ok all the time. I hated that and haven't taken anything since. Maybe I should, but I made it through the last year which has been hell with the split and all.
I'm still here and friends and family tell me I'm better than I've been in years so .... who knows? Certainly not me. Thank you bullitt, thank you very much.
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