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anonymousfornow · 06-18-2007, 11:14 AM

Instead of getting off the plane, seeing all your belongings at your house, and doing something, ANYTHING to fight for your relationship....he orders an escort.

Our whole miserable horrifying weekend was spent listening to the man I love come clean with all his indiscretions, and why he does it, and replaying in my head how utterly horrendous and hopeless the situation is and the loss and changes that this will cost both of us a long while into the future.

I just started a new position last Monday and I am not at work today. I am sick and depressed and want to rip the hair out of my head. This is going to cost me my job, my car, my home, my sanity, my ability to trust men in the future. I am an innocent bystander.

He should have to fix this mess ;not me. He should have to pay the price for what he has brought into our lives and down upon our heads. I have enough life challenges to face without this on top of it. This was the nail in the coffin.

I love this man and planned on staying with him for as much as there can be a forever. He feels the same way, and i do believe him. I just cannot be in love with him anymore.

He is sick, and maybe this is his bottom, this is what it takes for him to seek help. Unfortunately, I now need my own help that I cannot afford.

Neither of us have been in this situation and we freely admit it, we also freely admit that we have no clue what to do or how to fix things or how to make the pain and addiction go away, or how to minimize the destruction that will be wrought on each of us because of this.

We are not married, and any commitments we have made to each other are null and void. I am one that does not believe you need a ring and a paper from the state to make the commitment any stronger or any more valid.

He has asked me for help. Do I help him? Am I wrong for making the desicion to split? For better or for worse. Isnt this the worse part?

06-18-2007, 11:14 AM	#7
anonymousfornow May Ter Dee Join Date: Jul 2006 Posts: 26	Now what do I do? Instead of getting off the plane, seeing all your belongings at your house, and doing something, ANYTHING to fight for your relationship....he orders an escort. Our whole miserable horrifying weekend was spent listening to the man I love come clean with all his indiscretions, and why he does it, and replaying in my head how utterly horrendous and hopeless the situation is and the loss and changes that this will cost both of us a long while into the future. I just started a new position last Monday and I am not at work today. I am sick and depressed and want to rip the hair out of my head. This is going to cost me my job, my car, my home, my sanity, my ability to trust men in the future. I am an innocent bystander. He should have to fix this mess ;not me. He should have to pay the price for what he has brought into our lives and down upon our heads. I have enough life challenges to face without this on top of it. This was the nail in the coffin. I love this man and planned on staying with him for as much as there can be a forever. He feels the same way, and i do believe him. I just cannot be in love with him anymore. He is sick, and maybe this is his bottom, this is what it takes for him to seek help. Unfortunately, I now need my own help that I cannot afford. Neither of us have been in this situation and we freely admit it, we also freely admit that we have no clue what to do or how to fix things or how to make the pain and addiction go away, or how to minimize the destruction that will be wrought on each of us because of this. We are not married, and any commitments we have made to each other are null and void. I am one that does not believe you need a ring and a paper from the state to make the commitment any stronger or any more valid. He has asked me for help. Do I help him? Am I wrong for making the desicion to split? For better or for worse. Isnt this the worse part?