[hot_pastrami]

You know, my left eyelid does that twitching thing sometimes... I've asked people, and it's not noticablly twitching, but I can feel it all the same. Damned annoying.

I usually deal with stress pretty well, but part of the problem this time is that my girlfriend either A) doesn't appreciate the stress altitude I am cruising at, or B) is stressed out herself and dealing with it poorly. She's been starting little mock-arguments or criticisms on the most unimportant subjects, and doesn't let off until I get noticably irritated... It's like she's pushing me to see how far I'll go before I snap. It is not typical for her to be insensitive, and I don't know for certain what the cause is. All I do know is that when I bring the subject of this behavior, making an effort to be unaccusing, she gets very defensive and upset.

I appreciate that things are stressful for her too right now, but I think it's fair to say I'm under a lot more pressure than she... her parents are cool with the whole situation, she's getting into a house she really likes, and it was her idea to do something like this in the first place. Moreover, I'm dealing with nearly all of the house stuff myself... making repairs/improvements to my old house, selling it, and buying our new one. So her main points of stress are the change of situation, and the actual move. But I know life's not a see-who's-more-stressed-out contest.

I love her immensely though, and I know it will all work out well. We've been together awhile now and through some more complicated stuff, and in the end the relationship is stronger because of it.

Anyway, I'm just letting off steam again. It seems that the Cellar is part of my support network! Group hug!

Yeah.... *cough*. I'm done. For now.