Gosh. I just lost to my roommate in a video game and I'm so pissed. Goddamnit. I'm so pissed off that I lost, I'm quiet and soft. That's the pissed that burns your core. Yes I know, it's a fudging video game, but I'm so damn competitive, especially when I know I should have won. A problem I have.
There's no "feelings" thread here but my anger problem does affect relationships so here it is. I have gotten much better with my anger issues since I realized I have them but I still feel sooooooooooooooooooooo much heat at times my mindset would actually allow me to punch anything if I don't keep it on the down low. And I know anger problems can seriously screw people up--and the ones they care about.
Is anger genetic? Or formed by environmental upbringings? I seem to cool off in 15 minutes or so from mostly anything (mostly) but while I'm red I'm irrational, hostile and enraged. Bad tempers can do serious damage to a persona, to an entire life. I need to
Life lessons, anyone?