[Aliantha]

you're not terrible mate. If you don't know someone then it's pretty natural not to be too upset by their passing.

I can't answer the question as to why people do stuff like that other than to say that lots of us have low points in our lives where we've entertained the idea in our minds. I know I have, but there was something that stopped me from going ahead with it.

I think that happens to most people. For some though, there's nothing - in their minds - to stop them.

Maybe you can go to the funeral anyway? Or maybe you can just go about your business as per usual. The choice is yours, and your feelings are yours. It's not up to anyone else to tell you how to feel, and there's nothing wrong with you feeling nothing.