I get what youre saying V, now that I have the additional information.
I didnt *play* well in the past, when I have been involved with my play partner because I get jealous, not raving mad jealous, but I do get jealous and then I get really insecure and worried....mainly because I have been cheated on in the past and those scars are deep.
Horse dude keeps telling me that we wont do anything that I am not comfortable with
so its all good. I like trying different things, we have had a lot of fun in parks etc so far....tis fun