[Ibby]

The Girl Outside, a memory from Bedlam
Seeing her pass there outside my window drives me mad. I see her and it drives me mad. I love her I know I do I know I love her. The way she smiles, laughs, the way she laughs and smiles is beautiful. She passes by my window and she's beautiful. She doesnt see me watching. She's beautiful and she doesnt see me watching, and I love her. sometimes at night I imagine she's downstairs, under the floor, under my floor, under me, I imagine she's under me and she is beautiful and I love her. The doctors say no I dont love her I dont know her I havent seen her shes not there but I know shes there and I know she loves me. One day she'll come up here and save me and she is beautiful. She'll save me from the room where I sleep, take me away where they wont let me go where I cant go and I love her, and she'll say to me soft and sweet that she'll love me always and she's beautiful, and she'll sing soft and sweet and the notes will reach above all the trees and buildings and s she loves me. I see her pass on the street and I know she will come for me. She talks to me in my sleep she hums sweet lullabies like im a baby like im a child but im not a child im not her child im her lover and I am, she is beautiful. She loves me and I, she, I love her, she is beautiful and I love her. Why do they tell me I cant see her that they cant see her that I cant see cant love that I cant love her and she's beautiful, and I know I love her theyre wrong, but I can't see cant understand what they mean, shes my love, my beautiful maiden in a red hempen dress, shes beautiful and I love her, and she's stuck down there downstairs down on the ground alone where nobody can see her and shes all alone and I love her and I ill go to her, I need to save her, I need to save my princess, please let me save my princess, she's my love and let me out let me same my princess and I love her, shes beautiful, let me save her let me...