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I can understand her concern. She believes that the man she loves is damned if she doesn't help save him. It is an act of love in such circumstances, to try and convert him.
That said...if a relationship makes you less happy than you were is it a good relationship to be in? You had made an acceptable compact with the world you found yourself in. You were happy with what you perceived as your place in that and the beliefs which you had formed.
Now you're in tears? Now you are worried and upset and reaching for something which it doesn't honestly sound as if you actually believe in.
Personally, I would be inclined to draw a line in the sand: This is me. This is what I believe. I've listened to what you believe...I respect it but I don't share your faith. If that's a problem then this relationship has no future. If the relationship is to have a future, it must do so without these attempts at conversion and persuasion.
That would be my line. Because right now, she is (however innocent the motive) fucking with your head.
Whether there is a life after death or not, none of us know. I believe there isn't. You presumably believe there is (in some form). What there is after life, we cannot know. How likely is it that this one of the many cults/faiths/confessions that exist, or have ever existed, has got it right on the button?
What you can be sure of, is the life you have. Make this one a happy one and that much at least can you give yourself. If this situation is making you unhappy, then I suggest you rectify it.
[eta] welcome to the Cellar btw *smiles* stick around, but whatever you do don't ever open that red door over there...
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