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Send her a letter/ email about what you are doing and how things are with you.
That way she'll see you aren't snubbing her, and also might understand why you are genuinely busy.
Although do include the line - "I see you have a beard now! Is that the fashion where you live? Goodness, remember when you used to see Bearded Ladies only in freakshows?"

Anyway I came here to moan.
I'm thinking too much about my weight and being on a diet.
It really doesn't help.
I'm thinking about lunch two seconds after I finish breakfast, and yet I have not even changed what I eat for breakfast as it was always healthy. It's not hunger, not at all. The biggest change I have made is not drinking. My diet was really not that bad apart from the 2000 calories per day alcohol. So why the constant stressing about food now?

I'd like to switch off that part of my brain. It's rarely useful, doesn't stop me getting into trouble for example. It just plagues me to death about things I can't change, or will take time, or which shouldn't be over-thought anyway (relationships for example).

Maybe ECT would help?