[BigV]

This morning I went to the hospital with my mum and my brother and held dad's hand whilst he died.

Fitting and proper and sad. I've been in that chair myself--it wasn't pleasant. But it did have a definite sense of closure about it. I'm glad to hear you sounding as together as you do, for whatever reason. That's a good thing. I'm very sad to hear about your loss, even though it was graceful.

...And the person he felt closest to no longer there.

reminds me of this...

When I Get Where I'm Going
by Brad Paisley (Feat. Dolly Parton)

When I get where I'm going
on the far side of the sky.
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly.

I'm gonna land beside a lion,
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

(Chorus)
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here.

I'm gonna walk with my grandaddy,
and he'll match me step for step,
and I'll tell him how I missed him,
every minute since he left.
Then I'll hug his neck.

(Chorus)

So much pain and so much darkness,
in this world we stumble through.
All these questions, I can't answer,
so much work to do.

But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
Hallelujah!
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I'm going.
Yeah when I get where I'm going.