Quote:
Originally Posted by Queen of the Ryche
maybe a little rumba?
I am in a rut. Mentally, emotionally, physically, socially - you name it. I went from a high stress job to a similar job for less pay but ZERO stress, almost to the point of boredom. I have been dating the same guy for two years, and I know it's going nowhere - he wants to live together, and have me help raise his kids and share expenses and responsibilities, but I have no desire - I am recently divorced (about a year before I met him - is three years recent? I dunno) have my own beautiful daughter to raise, my own place that I love - why do I need all of that extra weight? I really do love the guy for who he is, and I enjoy spending time with him, but I really don't want to be his "partner." And he is not at my mental or social level (wow that sounsd conceited) so occasionally I find myself explaining jokes or language or points of reference, which is a big turn off. But I don't know how to break it off. I'm also supposed to be re-studying for my Series Seven which upon passing will increase my pay and status, but I already failed i tonce, and I don't deal well with failure, so I have totally postponed putting myself through the torture of mentally preparing for it again.
Thank you for letting me vent. You may now return to your regularly scheduled programming.
|
Oh my god... I just re-read this and realized how much I feel the same way about the guy I just started dating.
Only, he has no kids of his own and wants them, bad. I can't do that for him... well, not can't, but won't. And he's bright, but not bright enough. Plus, I'm still in emotional hamburger territory from my divorce, etc etc.
He knows all this but I can tell he's still hopeful, and I should just break it off now. It's only been four dates, it won't hurt him so much.
Dana, MTP, I actually was going to go down to the American Indian Center at PSU on Monday to talk to someone... as an older, returning, single parent, minority student, I am hoping that I can get funding that will help me pay my living expenses, which are considerable because I'm raising three kids and have a mortgage. Being self-employed, I can work part-time, any hours that don't conflict with my kids' schedules... but the nature of my business is that if I drop below a certain level of productivity, I'll sell a smaller percentage of what I do make, because designers need to feel confident about being able to come to me for the majority of their needs week after week. If I work full-time I can sell about 80% of what I make, but if I drop to half-time I'll only sell about 50% of what I make because I'll lose my steady big-purchase clients.