I'm not sure this is going to make sense, but...can I comment on a gift that I am enormously pleased with, but still kinda wonky about?
Selene got me a 32" HD LCD TV for my bedroom. Now, I've been wanting one for some time. We watch a lot of movies at my place, and sometimes we like to watch them comfortably in bed. When home, especially with the women in school, I spend a lot of time in my room watching my own favorite stuff while surfing on the computer. So an HD TV in my man cave has been a dream of mine for awhile.
But...as recently as a week ago, I told her to simply skip buying me any gift. We really couldn't afford it, and I really have all the toys any sane white man should need. But she loves me, and so she brought it in as the last major gift of the night at our family Yule.
Do I deserve it? Well, yes, I do. I work hard at a shit job all year long, paying a huge chunk of our household expenses and carrying insurance for both of us. I singlehandedly take care of most of the housecleaning and dish-doing. I clean up all the pet whoopsies. In short, I fucking rock. But I'm also rather practical.
So...to summarize (and thanks for bearing with me), I would have been happy had she stopped with the nice new flannel sheet set, had she stopped with the fun t-shirts she got me...I would have been *fine*.
This is touchy. I don't receive gifts well to begin with, because I always figure I'm putting someone out. Just because I say here that I rock does not mean that this is how I feel inside when someone is generous towards me. Especially if I think that the money could have been better spent.
So, in conclusion...I fuckin' love my new TV, and I think I'm gonna rent a porno for Selene and I to watch on it later this week in my bed on my new sheets and under my new comforter from TF.
Thanks for letting me rant.