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Well, I think you probably do have some sort of bliss to follow, it sounds to me more like you won't allow yourself to (for whatever reason). Maybe the place to start is just taking a class without expectation and seeing where that leads.

Another really really helpful thing, if you are truly serious about wanting to do something artistic with your life is to get a copy of the book "The Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron and do all the exercises in it. Won't do shit for your abs, but after you're done, you'll know where your bliss lies or doesn't.

One of my teachers had us do the exercises in the book one semester and I will say that was one of the most valuable classes I had in my 7 years of college.