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It's been over three months since whatever happened, happened; and I'm sorry, but I can't remember one single bit of it, if I was ever involved at all.
I hope that honest fact helps you to put things into perspective.
The reason we have moderators is so that I don't get singled out on this shit so my opinions do not really matter. Furthermore the entire community participates in the process by simply letting their opinions be known. They are more powerful than me or all the moderators combined. They are your judge and jury, not me.
It would appear you believe some sort of incredible injustice has been done to you and it has taken three months to build to some sort of crescendo. This type of "being unable to move past" is not healthy. Injustice is a part of life, whether it happens by direct malice or simply by mistake. Many others here have been dealt much worse injustices than you have (especially in light of the fact that I actually remember what happened).
By being unable to move past, you have done yourself much, much worse harm than what happened before. The "churn" you have felt has been damaging, mentally if not physically. It makes no logical sense for this to go on. Now you have contemplated trying to hurt the community you feel has wronged you in some way? The forum must be destroyed in order to save it? You didn't get exactly your way so you threatened to start throwing feces?
Think about it, won't you? Thank you.
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