[Sundae]

Ali has it right - it's not a competition.
I've always felt like I am in my sister's shadow and things like this bring it out in me.

I've said to Mum again and again, "Don't worry about me, it's your Dad's funeral, you do what you want."
The last thing she needs is squabbling daughters.
And my sister, for all her meek and mild appearance has a will of iron and propriety is very much her thing. For example she very much felt the fact that she didn't get to participate in Aunty Alice's funeral. She admitted she could not have stood up and delivered an off the cuff eulogy as I was called to do, but still mentioned many times afterwards that she should have been included and no-one knew who she was on the day.

I think it was losing the poem at the Crem that tipped me over the edge.
But looking back I didn't even mention it!
Anyway, it's silly because Mum was going to read a poem too, and she cut that as well, so it really wasn't personal.

Thanks for letting me sound off about something that really doesn't show me at my best.
I've got it out of my system without hurting anyone.