[Sundae]

Anon, when I had my final big crazy episode it felt like I fell off the edge of the world.
Oh, and the one before that.
Oh yes, and the one where I quit my full time job.

Okay, so I have had a series of adventures which start with me giving up.
Quitting my job in Leicester. Shock horror, lack of security and stability.
Moving to London - somewhere I swore I would never live again.
Being chucked out of the house - technically homeless.
Losing my full time job - have to move home with the parents!
Blagging things for a couple of months then having such a meltdown I had to attend a mental health unit every day...

There's always one step further to go.
And oddly, when things get that bad you are glad to take it.

You might find you get to the point when you have to surrender.
Thing is, people offer help then.
People who are barely balancing are rarely assisted, because the plates are still turning, so it can't be that bad, right? Wrong.

Only you know how much you can take.
I hope this is something that will pass.
It sounds devastating for the moment though.
Hold onto the thought you are valued and loved somewhere, by someone.