[Razzmatazz13]

Having never been pregnant myself, feel free to completely disregard my opinions, BUT -

Post pardum runs pretty heavily in my family (although I don't think anyone was officially diagnosed because they had their babies so long ago) ... what you're describing sounds a lot like the story my grandmother tells about my mom as a baby.

My mom was baby #3 in 3 years for my grandmother so I'm guessing by this point she was probably pretty overwhelmed being that she got married and then pregnant at 18, 19, and 20. She claims that when she was pregnant with my mom, she felt that god didn't want her to have the baby and that she needed to get rid of it...she even tried to toss herself down the stairs at one point. I would say if the feelings are intense like a panic attack and you're worried enough to ask us about it, you should probably speak to your doctor. When my mom was born she was awful to everyone except my grandmother...they bonded instantly and they're still the closest of all the kids...hormones do weird stuff.