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MY FINAL THOUGHTS ON THIS:
Is the type of love he can give, the type of love I want and need?
yes, with the one exception.(trust issues) i can overlook him being immature and irresponsible, because i can balance that out. just like he balances out my introvertedness by being the social half, and my pessimism by being the optimistic half. and he is loving, affectionate, attractive, generous and sexually compatible with me.
i know that noone is perfect, and i have dated and been in relationships with a lot of men, and i find him to be most compatible with me.
so, maybe i am being an overly loyal and optimistic fool here, but i am not ready to let it go. i want to wait and see if he goes to counseling, if he makes a REAL effort to be honest with me, even if it's uncomfortable for him, and just see what the future brings.
i am not ready to be loving with him or to trust him, hold him, cook for him, really, he's not getting much from me for awhile...i have distanced myself sooo much, but i want to wait and see what time will heal, and i want to see what his efforts are. and i know that i'll come around soon enough and start being nice, because he has that effect on me. it hurts me to be cold to him....
but i also know, that if something happens in the future to make me question our relationship, to make me feel this way, to make me doubt his honesty and intentions with me, i WILL leave him. you can hold me to that one.
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