So sorry to hear about all you're going through, ortho. I can identify most with the kid-stuff, obviously, and on the one hand it hurts and scares me to read but on the other hand you give me hope. Because I look at you and I say, "If she's through it, she's out the other side and has her head held high (and bald
,) then it must be do-able." I know you don't feel like it right now, but your strength is an inspiration to other people. You don't have to fight for that strength, it's already there inside you.