thanks now Im crying again. I just made an appt with a specislist in the vision thingy. I'm been warned that he may not be able to do anything for months, but at least I've made a start in the area that I felt i was being "let down" in.
But you know, some people are just really really thoughtless in the way they ask after my health. yes, it's nice they care, and I'm sure many of them are trying to empathise when they say things like "omg it could just have easily been me" but really, what emotionally weak, depressed and sleeep-deprived brain-damage patient wouldn't take that as 'thank god it wasn't me!"? And the ones who persist in trying to find something in my lifestyle/bodily make-up/medical history to explain it. "are they sure it isn't due to birth control pills? Did they say it couldn't be that?" Well no, but given that I don't take them it's a pretty fair bet it's not..... "of course I take the ones with less stroke risk associated...."
yes, I really did have an email exchange like that with someone. A normal nice intelligent and empathetic someone.