[Sundae]

Ali, that's a whole pile of fuck-uppery.
I know from PMs with you that you have done exactly what you said in that email - you have never denied their father access, but Dazza has been far more of a father to those boys than their biological Dad.

Do try not to be too angry.
I say that as someone who would be effing and blinding and getting a bunch of goons together to smack his arse if I was in your shoes.
You're handling it admirably. Just remember you did everything you could. And everything you could was paying it forward. They seem so very grounded. So very well informed. So chances are there will never be a question of who cared and who was a deadbeat.

It's odd - I was watching one of those daytime talkshows the other day. The ones where dads walk away when the children are proved not to be theirs. And I thought about adoptive fathers. And I actually did think about Daz. How can you live with a child and not have a bond? And on these shows they are talking about babies. Not children already out of nappies and with distinctive personalities.

Love you for raising your brood of course. But love Dazza nearly as much.
Sod that girl and the kangaroo she rode in on.
Your babies are still too young for you to surrender them without conditions.