[Ocean's Edge]

I'm actually not avoiding humans today - although from the quiet around Arthcwtch - you'd think I was.

I had been avoiding interacting with anyone for a week or so there prior to Him leaving for Australia - I wasn't in a good place ... and it wasn't so much that I didn't want to talk to anyone, it was just the ... well getting out of bed in the morning was exhausting, anything beyond that was real work.

So he's in Brisbane, he left Thursday afternoon, we also rehomed the puppy - these things make me sad, but I am in a better head space than I was - still the quiet around here without the 2 of them .... I'm spending a lot of time hiding on the internet to keep the silence from getting too deafening.

Still there's a lot of 'baggage' right now - around the trip, around the stuff that needs doing here, around life in general - I expect to vacillate wildly between 'OK' and 'Please just let me die here now' The good part is (I suppose) that his being away actually GIVES me a reason to crawl out of bed in the morning - someone has to deal with the 'stuff' and more importantly feed the dogs and cats