Since I was a kid, I have struggled with feelings of being "left out" and "forgotten about." I put these in quotes, because, to be honest, I'm not sure how much of it is rooted in reality. It certainly happened as a kid, but as an adult, it's hard for me to judge how much it happens. I suspect that, because it happened as a kid, I'm hyper-sensitive to it now...so any appearance of it happening unnerves me. I attempt to be subtle in how I address it as well...though sometimes, I'm as subtle as a bull in a china shop.
I dunno...I tend to "feel" things far more than many people. The littlest things (both happy and sad) tend to bring heightened responses to me upon recollection.
I just took a Myers-Briggs test...I've heard they're considered garbage now, but I don't care. I tend to be INFP or INFJ. Today's result: on the borderline of all 4 fields...fucking kidding me?!
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