[Sundae]

Add guilt to the party. Constant and nagging, sometimes flaring up until you can't actually see and all you can do is breathe and hope it passes.
Waking up every morning and remembering what's going on and feeling it like a physical blow.
And the dreams... I still have dreams that make me so sad. Some I'm glad to wake up from and realise I don't have to go through it all again. Some where I wake up and am sad because I did go through it.

Put me off relationships for good.
I haven't had anything more serious than a fling since.
Although my fling with the Evil Ex did last seven years, we never actually shared eachother's lives. When I finally knocked it on the head for good (the fling, not him) there was no-one in my life who even knew about him, let alone anyone who'd met him. Oh I lie, he met my parents once.

My actual divorce was just a piece of paper.
It went through without me contesting it because we'd been separated for three years.
It was the separation that hurt, and I count those months as equivilant to the process of divorce being discussed here.