It's a big deal to me.
But I apologize for overreacting.
If you care: I am facing enormous emotional pressures in my life (which are not your problem--especially since I'm not open enough to even share these things) but in that context--I'm trying to gradually re-open a social connection to the Cellar community, but every time I come back here, I feel like you are especially mean and critical towards me, as if you don't want me here and are trying to make me leave. I think you're trying to curate me out of the community because you personally don't like me.
