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Old 09-11-2013, 12:50 PM   #9570
Sundae
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Join Date: Sep 2005
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Sorry Infi, just come across your family woes and withdrawal issues.
Yours is heavier shit than mine.

I wish everything good for your Mum. And glad to hear she's home
And goodness, even more good for you.
It must feel fucking hard right now.
But you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for and you are a fighter. I hope it's not too terrifying; I found just changing medication like being on a deckchair on the Titanic.
Keep breathing.

Thanks for the kind words people.
I have detox to look forward to (as of Friday) but at least Dad only has outpatient appointments at present.
Though as I said the journeys are really getting them down.
We're leaving much of our thinking until the 'rents come back from holiday.
It's hard, because Mum gets so angry with Dad.
And I side with him because she can be so vicious. But he loves her. And she does love him.
It's her learned reaction to attack when she is upset/ frustrated/ out of her depth/ under stress. So it's a sign that she's probably suffering more than he is.
My learned response is to feel sick at confrontation and to hide away...

Anyway. My detox is all about me, but my parents' health is not.
I think I've finally come up against something that lottery-dreaming can't fix.
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