[morethanpretty]

I can't get into details, but there is something I should do, it would be best for all. I was all ready to take the necessary steps when the time came up. Well its come up. And I can't I just can't. It'd be like purposely ripping out my own heart and stomping on it. I've started to, get part of the way through and its like I'm physically in pain. Agh! It ought to be such an easy decision to go through, and its just ridiculously hard. It'll happen whether I initiate it or not, I guess I'll just go through the pain later.