I'm going insane!

[Cloud]

she wants me there bad and the job market is better than here.

I'm at the top of my salary range for my profession here in town. I'll have to get another job eventually--my boss is 64 and isn't talking about retiring yet, but I have to look at the long term. My town has very few economic opportunities, and I figure I have another 15 years to work and save.

If I stay here, there's a chance--just a chance--that I'll be able to buy a house, which has been a life-long dream of mine. If I move, I'll lose that chance more than likely.

The thing is, I can go. I've lived here for 20 years, and I have no man in my life, no close friends. My lease is up next month, and I've saved a l ittle bit--enough for a move. But should I?

I kind of feel I owe it to myself to make a change, shake up my life a little, and go on an adventure. It would be risk--and if I don't take that risk, will I feel like a coward? If I'm going to do it, I should do it now, while I'm still young enough to get a good job and enjoy things.

ack!