I wish I was great

[monster]

I am truthful and honest. it usually gets me called a bitch round here. I will work on getting used to this K word.

One thing (maybe the only thing, certainly a big thing) I learned from my stroke is that I was awesome IRL. I learned that I had no self-esteem before. ((still don't have much but working on it.... watch) I thought that I was one of life's born losers. let's face it, most on The cellar do, it's one of the things that binds us together, and yet we're not...

"You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone". truer than it has any right to be. Turns out I was great, in my universe. I just had no idea. I only learned when it all fell down and so many people said "why aren't you doing this, how can we possibly do this, this is too much for one person, how on earth did you, ...., why are you unhappy, you're still above average....."

thankfully it isn't all gone, but shit, if I knew what I had, I'd've taken more time to appreciate it You need to do that too, toad, don't wait 'til it's too late.

The world population increases so greatness falls under a bigger Shadow. if you lived in Roman times, you'd be so great you couldn't afford it. But you don't. Which is easier on the wallet, but harder on the ego.

[xoxoxoBruce]

Originally Posted by monster

I am truthful and honest.

Keep in mind that doesn't make you right, just honest.

One thing (maybe the only thing, certainly a big thing) I learned from my stroke is that I was awesome IRL.

Jesus..., you were so busy doing the absolute extraordinary, you never noticed that others, not fucking one, was doing the same?

thankfully it isn't all gone...

Of course not, you may have slowed up a mite, but you've got the skills, experience, and smarts to more than compensate for that. Plus you're a tri-athlete, so you've got the heart. You're a winner.