What's upsetting you today? - Page 163

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 08:55 AM

whats also not good is how many tries it took me to type that. and how i can hardly stand up.

Trilby · 08-30-2008, 08:58 AM

so...are you drunk right now or hungover? Either state is hellish. My sympathies.

Sundae · 08-30-2008, 09:03 AM

Don't worry Ibs - it's just self-indulgence not habit.
But given how it might end - stop now. You'll have plenty of time to develop bad habits in college, you don't need any practice beforehand.

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:03 AM

yeah im pretty drunk.
like can't type or sit up straight drunk.
shit.
i dont like being drunk.
fuck, i dont even like drinking or anything
i dont know why i do it
why do i feel numb all over?
shit.i should probably go to sleep.

whhy do i do this? i dont enjoy it. Its downright painful to actually get the alcohol down (especially with my throat in as much pain as it already is, i think im getting sick), and i dont enjoy being drunk. why the fuck do i drink?

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:05 AM

sg: yeah. i really should stop.
the problem is
i dont even think of myself as a 'drinker'
like if people ask i say
oh yeah, nah, i dont really drink

its hard to stop something you dont even think of yourself as doing

and its also hard to type. shit.
i think im going to bed.

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:09 AM

so i just walked through the living room
and actually had a (fortunately brief) conversation with my mother

and then the first thing i did when i got back to my room is sit down and promptly fall over. shit.

Griff · 08-30-2008, 09:10 AM

Are you drinking out of boredom or stress? Maybe you need to find something that isn't self-destructive to fill your time.

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:13 AM

fuck i can hardly even stand up straight
i dunno how much of it is mental and how much is the alcohol
but shit
im out of it

and sorry im like posting so much right in a row.
my bad.

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:20 AM

um i wouldnt say im BORED.. or stressed for that matter.

well okay, maybe i am. bored cuz ive got nothing to do on a saturday night but play quake and drink, andl listen to prince, and stressed cuz ive got a ton of homework im totally not doing, but... meh.

i really dont know why i do it. attention maybe. that seems most plausible.god knows im enough of a little attention whore already.

Ibby · 08-30-2008, 09:31 AM

i really do feel like im numb. all over.
and i just almost fell outta my chair. i think im drunker than ive ever been before
not that thats saying much.
shit.
remind me that im not supposed to do this again.

SamIam · 08-30-2008, 10:46 AM

Ibram, this is your liver speaking. PLease, please stop beating me up. We need each other. I'll never leave you, but you may force me into a break down where I have no choice. Besides, aren't you tired of feeling like shit? I know I am.

ZenGum · 08-31-2008, 03:31 AM

At first I was thinking this was just regulation teen-age misbehaviour - but that is supposed to make you happy.
A grumpy drunk at your age, Ibram, as you say, is not good.

So now I am thinking subconsciously deliberate self-harm/self-destructive/self-sabotage behaviour. Punishing yourself for not doing the homework which you know you should do, but don't want to do, maybe? Or sabotaging yourself so there is no way you can do it now?

No sympathy right now. I am hoping there might be some aversion therapy value in your suffering.
Here's what I reckon you should do. If you have a spinning desk chair, sit on it and spin round and round as fast as you can twenty times. Then go back the other way. The do it with your face pointing upwards.
We'll get some serious aversion going here!

classicman · 08-31-2008, 10:28 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ibram

remind me that im not supposed to do this again.

^^^^^^^^^^DON'T DO THIS AGAIN^^^^^^^^^^^

xoxoxoBruce · 08-31-2008, 10:49 AM

Shape up boy! You fuck up in school and it's straight in the Army for you... those D.I.s will make a man of your drunken ass.

Trilby · 08-31-2008, 11:23 AM

Don't do it, Ibby. Look at the mess I made of my life!!!

08-30-2008, 08:55 AM	#2431
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	whats also not good is how many tries it took me to type that. and how i can hardly stand up. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 08:58 AM	#2432
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	so...are you drunk right now or hungover? Either state is hellish. My sympathies. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

08-30-2008, 09:03 AM	#2434
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	yeah im pretty drunk. like can't type or sit up straight drunk. shit. i dont like being drunk. fuck, i dont even like drinking or anything i dont know why i do it why do i feel numb all over? shit.i should probably go to sleep. whhy do i do this? i dont enjoy it. Its downright painful to actually get the alcohol down (especially with my throat in as much pain as it already is, i think im getting sick), and i dont enjoy being drunk. why the fuck do i drink? __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 09:05 AM	#2435
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	sg: yeah. i really should stop. the problem is i dont even think of myself as a 'drinker' like if people ask i say oh yeah, nah, i dont really drink its hard to stop something you dont even think of yourself as doing and its also hard to type. shit. i think im going to bed. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 09:09 AM	#2436
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	so i just walked through the living room and actually had a (fortunately brief) conversation with my mother and then the first thing i did when i got back to my room is sit down and promptly fall over. shit. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 09:03 AM	#2433
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Don't worry Ibs - it's just self-indulgence not habit. But given how it might end - stop now. You'll have plenty of time to develop bad habits in college, you don't need any practice beforehand.

08-30-2008, 09:10 AM	#2437
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Are you drinking out of boredom or stress? Maybe you need to find something that isn't self-destructive to fill your time. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

08-30-2008, 09:13 AM	#2438
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	fuck i can hardly even stand up straight i dunno how much of it is mental and how much is the alcohol but shit im out of it and sorry im like posting so much right in a row. my bad. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 09:20 AM	#2439
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	um i wouldnt say im BORED.. or stressed for that matter. well okay, maybe i am. bored cuz ive got nothing to do on a saturday night but play quake and drink, andl listen to prince, and stressed cuz ive got a ton of homework im totally not doing, but... meh. i really dont know why i do it. attention maybe. that seems most plausible.god knows im enough of a little attention whore already. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 09:31 AM	#2440
Ibby erika Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: "the high up north" Posts: 6,127	i really do feel like im numb. all over. and i just almost fell outta my chair. i think im drunker than ive ever been before not that thats saying much. shit. remind me that im not supposed to do this again. __________________ not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh

08-30-2008, 10:46 AM	#2441
SamIam Registered User Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Not here Posts: 2,655	Ibram, this is your liver speaking. PLease, please stop beating me up. We need each other. I'll never leave you, but you may force me into a break down where I have no choice. Besides, aren't you tired of feeling like shit? I know I am.

08-31-2008, 03:31 AM	#2442
ZenGum Doctor Wtf Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Badelaide, Baustralia Posts: 12,861	At first I was thinking this was just regulation teen-age misbehaviour - but that is supposed to make you happy. A grumpy drunk at your age, Ibram, as you say, is not good. So now I am thinking subconsciously deliberate self-harm/self-destructive/self-sabotage behaviour. Punishing yourself for not doing the homework which you know you should do, but don't want to do, maybe? Or sabotaging yourself so there is no way you can do it now? No sympathy right now. I am hoping there might be some aversion therapy value in your suffering. Here's what I reckon you should do. If you have a spinning desk chair, sit on it and spin round and round as fast as you can twenty times. Then go back the other way. The do it with your face pointing upwards. We'll get some serious aversion going here! __________________ Shut up and hug. MoreThanPretty, Nov 5, 2008. Just because I'm nominally polite, does not make me a pussy. Sundae Girl.

08-31-2008, 10:49 AM	#2444
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	Shape up boy! You fuck up in school and it's straight in the Army for you... those D.I.s will make a man of your drunken ass. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

08-31-2008, 11:23 AM	#2445
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	Don't do it, Ibby. Look at the mess I made of my life!!! __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

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