What's making you sad today - Page 5

anonymous · 07-15-2015, 12:34 PM

Thank you for your advice. I feel like I've been doing all those things for years. I try to do better and wait for better and cruise along then it all just keeps coming baack to remind me I'm not good enough, not really, for anyone or anything and all this waiting for a tomorrow that might be better to come is just beating a dead horse.

It's not going to get better and I won't be good enough but dont' worry I will not do anything stupid. I'm just so tired and I want to cry into the virtual arms of a bunch of people who probably don't think much of me either or wouldn't if they knew me (so I've been told.)

Undertoad · 07-15-2015, 12:56 PM

And then there are those people who do the same, and who TRULY aren't good people, and wind up happy anyway - it tells us that happiness is sort of unrelated to what we do. A trick of the brain, more than the outcome to the work we've been doing in this world.

anonymous · 07-15-2015, 01:19 PM

I think you're right and that is what I was thinking. why keep trying to fight the good fight when it doesn't seem to make much difference when the tricfk of the brain seems to repel any happiness.

Gravdigr · 07-15-2015, 01:20 PM

Fuck that 'not good enough' shit. You're wrong.

anonymous · 07-15-2015, 01:23 PM

No im not, it was made perfectly clear to me.

Gravdigr · 07-15-2015, 02:10 PM

Then they're wrong, and a piece of shit for saying it, so, you should pay them no mind anyway.

xoxoxoBruce · 07-15-2015, 02:21 PM

Fucking A, it doesn't matter what they think, it behooves them to knock you down for their status. It only matters what you think of you. Are you doing your best? That's all you can do. If someone says they can do it better, agree with them, and tell them to have at it. It only matters if you give a fuck... so don't.

Undertoad · 07-15-2015, 02:28 PM

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Originally Posted by anonymous

I think you're right and that is what I was thinking. why keep trying to fight the good fight when it doesn't seem to make much difference when the tricfk of the brain seems to repel any happiness.

The brain will do the reverse trick (you can trick it yourself) -- and then, all that work is no longer tasks for unappreciative people, but just stuff that you do for love or money?

limey · 07-15-2015, 03:45 PM

Grav is right, you're a valued part of this community as you are, I suspect, IRL. Someone is trying to cut you down, as xoB says, for their own aggrandisement. Fuck that. Pity them. I do for their paltry, petty pitiful behaviour.

Sent by thought transference

xoxoxoBruce · 07-15-2015, 03:56 PM

I'm curious if these are "friends", family, or cow orkers?

DanaC · 07-15-2015, 04:07 PM

Some people can be so very careless with other people's state of mind.

What qualifies this other person to judge your worthiness? Why accept their judgement as more valid than another?

We've seen at close quarters, in this place, how catastrophically wrong someone can be about their own value. Bri's family are still living with the fallout from that and will do so for the rest of their lives. And every longtime dwellar here felt and feels that loss at times. For all that I understand how depression and addiction can warp a person's sense of their own place in the world, it baffles me still how someone so warm and valued could feel so worthless.

I have no doubt in my mind that there are people who would be equally baffled that you feel this way about yourself.

BigV · 07-15-2015, 04:53 PM

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Originally Posted by anonymous

No im not, it was made perfectly clear to me.

"clear" and "true" have exactly zero dependencies on each other.

there's lots of stuff that's clear and true,
lots of stuff that that's clear and untrue,
lots of stuff that's unclear and true,
lots of stuff that's unclear and untrue.

Neither implies the other, ever. Try to base your belief and your actions on what is true, clear or otherwise.

monster · 07-15-2015, 05:09 PM

Anon, these are just your inner demons talking and translating the words of those around you with bias. You know this, really, and it doesn't make it easier to bear, but soldier on, because the better times are ok, and we value you. We may be virtual friends, we may be IRL friends, we may be trolls, but we value you, and we don't value just any old words on a screen.

sexobon · 07-15-2015, 05:56 PM

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I would like to be dead now.

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Originally Posted by anonymous

I don't see a point any more. It's the same things over and over and it really doesn't matter what I do it's never going to get better. I dont' know any reason to keep trying, when it all comes out the same.

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Originally Posted by anonymous

... I try to do better and wait for better and cruise along then it all just keeps coming baack to remind me I'm not good enough, not really, for anyone or anything ...

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Originally Posted by anonymous

No im not, it was made perfectly clear to me.

Reminded me of this:

Lamplighter · 11-22-2015, 08:26 PM

This pic is from a couple of years ago
Today they did not make it back out.

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The car had three people in it when they drove out on Mildrum Bar,
but when driving back to the ramp, the car went under.
... only 2 survived.

07-15-2015, 01:20 PM	#64
Gravdigr The Un-Tuckian Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Central...KY that is Posts: 39,517	Fuck that 'not good enough' shit. You're wrong. __________________ These statements have not been evaluated by the FDA, EPA, FBI, DEA, CDC, or FDIC. These statements are not intended to diagnose, cause, treat, cure, or prevent any disease. If you feel you have been harmed/offended by, or, disagree with any of the above statements or images, please feel free to fuck right off.

07-15-2015, 02:10 PM	#66
Gravdigr The Un-Tuckian Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Central...KY that is Posts: 39,517	Then they're wrong, and a piece of shit for saying it, so, you should pay them no mind anyway. __________________ These statements have not been evaluated by the FDA, EPA, FBI, DEA, CDC, or FDIC. These statements are not intended to diagnose, cause, treat, cure, or prevent any disease. If you feel you have been harmed/offended by, or, disagree with any of the above statements or images, please feel free to fuck right off.

07-15-2015, 02:21 PM	#67
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	Fucking A, it doesn't matter what they think, it behooves them to knock you down for their status. It only matters what you think of you. Are you doing your best? That's all you can do. If someone says they can do it better, agree with them, and tell them to have at it. It only matters if you give a fuck... so don't. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

07-15-2015, 03:45 PM	#69
limey Encroaching on your decrees Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: An island within the south-west coast of Scotland Posts: 7,016	Grav is right, you're a valued part of this community as you are, I suspect, IRL. Someone is trying to cut you down, as xoB says, for their own aggrandisement. Fuck that. Pity them. I do for their paltry, petty pitiful behaviour. Sent by thought transference __________________ Living it up on the edge ... of civilisation, within the southwest coast of

07-15-2015, 03:56 PM	#70
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	I'm curious if these are "friends", family, or cow orkers? __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

07-15-2015, 12:34 PM	#61
anonymous Operations Operative Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: in hiding Posts: 578	Thank you for your advice. I feel like I've been doing all those things for years. I try to do better and wait for better and cruise along then it all just keeps coming baack to remind me I'm not good enough, not really, for anyone or anything and all this waiting for a tomorrow that might be better to come is just beating a dead horse. It's not going to get better and I won't be good enough but dont' worry I will not do anything stupid. I'm just so tired and I want to cry into the virtual arms of a bunch of people who probably don't think much of me either or wouldn't if they knew me (so I've been told.)

07-15-2015, 12:56 PM	#62
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	And then there are those people who do the same, and who TRULY aren't good people, and wind up happy anyway - it tells us that happiness is sort of unrelated to what we do. A trick of the brain, more than the outcome to the work we've been doing in this world.

07-15-2015, 01:19 PM	#63
anonymous Operations Operative Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: in hiding Posts: 578	I think you're right and that is what I was thinking. why keep trying to fight the good fight when it doesn't seem to make much difference when the tricfk of the brain seems to repel any happiness.

07-15-2015, 01:23 PM	#65
anonymous Operations Operative Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: in hiding Posts: 578	No im not, it was made perfectly clear to me.

07-15-2015, 05:09 PM	#73
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	Anon, these are just your inner demons talking and translating the words of those around you with bias. You know this, really, and it doesn't make it easier to bear, but soldier on, because the better times are ok, and we value you. We may be virtual friends, we may be IRL friends, we may be trolls, but we value you, and we don't value just any old words on a screen. __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

11-22-2015, 08:26 PM	#75
Lamplighter Person who doesn't update the user title Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: Bottom lands of the Missoula floods Posts: 6,402	This pic is from a couple of years ago Today they did not make it back out. The car had three people in it when they drove out on Mildrum Bar, but when driving back to the ramp, the car went under. ... only 2 survived.

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