RANT WARNING

[monster]

The hardest thing sbout having a stroke is the other people needing reassurance.

Firstly, they want to know what you did wrong so they can be sure they're not doing it too.

Secondly, they want to know you're doing OK and getting better and expected to make a full recovery so they can get on with their lives and not feel guilty about it.

They don't want to hear it's the type of thing that can happen to anyone. I wonder why they're not reassured by "it's OK, rest easy, I've taken the bullet for my circle of friends, you're good...."

Sounds cynical? maybe. maybe not. what was your first thought when you learned I had a stroke? My first thought was "well the eonly bad thing I do is drink too much beer...must be the beer.... (doc said no). So then I thought, better me than my kid (once they compared me to the heathy young athletes who drop dead without warning)

People, I can't reassure you. This IS the random shit that happens to anyone. could have been one of my kids, I'm thankful it isn't although to be honest, it affects allof us equally. So I have to deal with not being able to drive and my vision being fuzzy and my limbs weak.... we all have to deal with me being taken out of control of the beestmonster calendar and excursions. Ican't even begin to describe the clusterfuck that happened to Hebe's ride this weekend.....but I'm sure I will soon......

and we all have to deal with my mourning of my loss and we all have to dealwith the depreddion snd snxiety and emotion and mood swings that come with most strokes.

So please, don't seek reassurance from me right now. Also, don't ask for or expect personal updates. I have snough difficulty updating myself. If somwthing bad happens, you will know. If something good happens, I'll be too busy enjoying it to update you. Please assume no news is good news and get the fuck out there and enjoy your life.