Sigh.
There's a term in common useage here, "The walk of shame" meaning the walk back home in the clothes you went out in the morning after a one night stand.

I don't think there's an equivalent internet term for having to come online and check last nights posts. I think maybe Facing the Music will do. And I have done, and it's not bad thank goodness. But bloody hell, I realise this morning that I have my own thread for when I've got drunk. Bloody hell. That's pretty bad. I'm equally ashamed about the drunkenness and the attention whoring.

But there is a tiny part of me that is impressed I managed to find it each time. Sorry.

I'll drink to that.

It's also time to reflect on the circumstances that led you to that place again. What is the trigger and how can we help you to help yourself avoid it in the future.

Let's all fly over there real quick-like, kick SG's ass for beating herself up, then fly right back.

SG...every step you learn. No shame allowed.

Catch 22. I hate myself, so I drink.
If I drink, I hate myself.

Plus side - it's nowhere near as regular as it was.
And I admit when it happens.
But Classic's right. And I don't often say that ;)

I was s'posed to go into Relapse Prevention next week.
Guess I'm back to the start.

Identifying Triggers:
Breathing?

Its a start. As one who has already walked this path, I know you need to take whatever you can and build upon it.

haggis
and hugs, SG

Cheers.

Do they have AA where you are, SG.? If so, you might want to look into it. You know about doing the same thing and expecting different results. Yes, its insanity. I got on the wagon last May and except for a couple of slips I have stayed sober since then. Best of luck to you.

AA(UK) = AAA(USA) ...different type of wagon :lol:

It does exist over there but is very unBritish. Mind you, SG's very cosmopolitan :)

I've been to three AA (AAA) meetings. Hated them, hated them, hated them. One for each time I went. May have been four. Hated that too.

Just not me, sorry.
Everyone talks about God, and how God saved them, and protected them, and led them to a final denouement. I know the official line is that you don't have to believe in God, but you DO have to believe in a higher power. I tried making that evolution, but when you're listening to a bunch of people talk about the guy with the big white beard ("sometimes they confuse me Santa Claus") and you're thinking of Darwin, it's hard to take it seriously.

I've never read a POV from a successful atheist AAer.
Maybe we're all godless and hopeless.
If there was a similar godless organisation I genuinely would give it a try.
Huh. Smokers don't have this problem! They get patches!

Well, S,G., if you hated, hated, hated it so much for that thought. I'm neither an atheist nor a Bible thumper. When people talk about Santa-God, this turns me off, too. I just find it helpful to spend some time with people who are dealing with the same problem as I am. Hope you come across something that works for you.

I disagree. I don't think it's bad, at all. You are doing you best to monitor your behaviour, and to have it monitored by a group you trust. We're not going to tell you to believe in a higher power that'll help you through this, but we are your AA group. You tell us how hard you find it, and of your lapses, and we love you and support you and try to help you keep your decision, or return to it.

And secretly, I'm impressed that you can find this thread every time, too!

LMAO. Well, laughed out loud and even applauded. Really.

Sundae ... maybe the Cellar is your higher power. We comfort you in distress, praise your achievements, chastise you when you slip, but forgive you and encourage further effort. And UT has a beard. What more can you ask for?

Be good, and love yourself, 'cause we said so.

This may seem like a rude question, from a relative outsider, but...

What do you get, from consuming alcohol? Physically, emotionally, spiritually.

(I simply added "spiritually," as I hate lists comprising of no more than "two" items... and I don't mean it in a religious way, rather, a self-reflecting way.)