Whoa, Sundae! I just noticed we signed up at the same time, I really need to lift my posting game....but it would all be dribble, my posts would be no where near as eloquent.

Tcha.
I sometimes reread my posts and think - blimey, that was well written!
When I say sometimes I mean almost never. I did read one about rhyming poetry I don't remember writing but am quite proud of.

90% of the time it is nonsense/ drivel/ just silliness.

I remember seeing both Ali and Monster as noobs.
Seems silly now.

What's silly is that I still feel like a noob often.

Yup, that's silly :)
5+ years is a big commitment in internet terms!
Hell, it's longer than my marriage.

lol...I know I'm an idiot.

I've posted about this feeling before and always get shouted down for it. I know it's dopey and all, and after some of the crap I've been involved in here, you'd think I'd be feeling right at home.

I have that general feeling of disconnect from my real life too though. Like I just don't quite fit in somehow. I've always had it. Who knows. I'm sure if I mentioned it to a shrink of some kind they'd have plenty to say about it.

No shouting here babba.
Infi has had the same issue. She's said so on the board so I'm not breaking confidence.

I have had a real issue about being left out all my life.
My most disturbing dreams involve my Mum and sister and them hiding things from me. I am so angry/ distressed I physically attack them. A dream where I smash my sister's head into concrete is extreme but not unknown.

Here though, I am quite relaxed. I was paranoid as a newb. But not now.
Although other things can seriously bug me. I PM'd someone recently about a response I'd had. I took it VERY personally. The person I PM'd gently suggested a different way to read it, and they were right. I had read far too much into it, as later posts proved.

This is a good place, all round.
Look what Mari endured and then came back as bigger, better, more.

Longer than my marriage too.

My el cheapo frying pan lasted longer than my marriage too.

hee hee!!

Me, too!

On both the marriage(S) and pan(S)

:)

ah, well. Live and learn.

does it count if I say I've been posting here for longer than I've been married? lol So no matter when my marriage falls apart (let's hope it doesn't) I will have been posting here for longer. ;)

Yep - do not ever ever ever get married again.

New pans are acceptable.

I didn't have an el-cheapo frying pan.
At least not one which made any impact on my memory.
I left my Le Creuset pans behind me though. Although that wasn't a regret. Things were too bloody heavy to be practical. And try making popcorn in one!

The casserole (Dutch Oven) was gorgeous, but I had to have help getting it out of the oven when I was cooking for company.

But that would be a great way to meet guys!

just swank up to them and say, "Could you help me get something gorgeous out of my oven?"

Is the phrase "bun in the oven" current in America?

evidently not current enough...... either that or "would you like to come up and see my afterbirth?" is considered an acceptable chat-up line

I just read this.

I know all those feelings.

It's like "we can't know you if you don't show us" yet sometimes when one tentatively reaches out one 'feels' as though their hand was slapped away. As if to say "you are not good enough."

It's quite painful to be obviously dismissed, too, when one is reaching out the best they know how (I almost typed 'the beest they know how' sorry monster!) and are ignored. I'd rather be yelled at than ignored. Ignored does indeed say "you are not good enough." So be it.

This is MY hang-up, I know, in my more lucid less convoluted times. I just keep riding the waves.

Oh hell, I got nuttin' about cooking.

Maybe I"ll post some of my grandma's recipes. I inherited her little recipe box and was going through it this weekend, as a matter o' fact.

Anyone ever heard of a homemade candy called 'sea foam'?