Un-fucked with.

I would like to be that.

Apparently he has a hospital appointment in the New Year.
Although I think Mum said that was about his prostate..?

Anyway, she's on the case and she'll go with him to make sure he asks all the right questions.

She hasn't done surgery (yet). She's been trying to get by with the exercises the PT gave her but something has to give. Anybody try acupuncture?

Not trying to loose weight. I will ride a min of 100 miles per week on the bike and ride a century a month.

I will try to be more productive at work and spend less time on the Cellar.

For a different reason, but yes.
First time I relaxed so entirely in an unrelaxing setting that I fell asleep.
I thought it was amazing.

Next time, very relaxed but without sleep.
Still amazingly positive.

Third time, different place, different time, was extremely distracted by the people around me.

Last time I was so incredibly stressed at other people's mouth noises (Shawnee is my twin) that I was desperate for the session to end so I could leave. Simple courtesy kept me there, so I didn't harsh their groove, but I could quite happily have stabbed them all in the throat for being so fucking disgusting.

So, yeah.
I'm not entirely convinced about acupuncture.
For me to get wound up to that pitch, when pins were supposed to be calming me (and the effects were to last a WEEK!) kinda destroyed my faith.

This was all part of detox.
I walked out of the final session and got drunk.
Which was my own choice of course, but it really was Objective Not Accomplished as far as the session went.

Of course it might have been the practitioners, given my positive experiences were by the same people and my negatives ones were too.
If ya get me.

I am going to write articles for cracked.com or websites like it. they may not be get published, it may not be worth publishing, and they may not accept stuff written on used toilet paper, but as the internet is my wittness i will do it! i already started a few, and one of them has to be finished at some point, which i am hoping will be earlier then 2013.

i am going to gain financial independence, and this time around not loose it impolsively on traveling/failedstartups/women ! (4rd time the charm right?)

Good. Coz he needs to see one. I'm glad he's going.

I am already resolved and have been working on it already. Why wait for a special date? :)

OK, I need to try harder.

If you've got any extra, I'll buy it off you. (I mean it.) I trust Grifftopia meat.

Me three. I tried to post words to that effect last night, then the puter crashed, then I figured I couldn't afford it, but I do hate the current farming methods so very very much....

Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.

I suspect you aren't going into the meat business, but if you are, I would also be interested. Although I don't have a stand alone freezer.

I don't typically make resolutions, I just end up disappointing myself. There's the long running reminder every year to make sure I fill out comment cards or put a word in for the manager if I get great service somewhere. That's really just become a way of life, because I know how good it feels.

When it comes to ME, I know I need to be kinder to myself, so maybe I'll cut back on my self-deprecating humor. Maybe I'll say a nice thing or two to myself now and again. You know, real stuff, not like bragging about my great eyebrows, *snicker* things I actually DO. Positive affirmations.

Because I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and goshdarnit, a couple people like me.
(Crap this is going to be harder than I thought.) ;)