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only advice I can offer is to narrow everything down to the present moment. stay out of the past, it's gone. don't live in the future, it's not here yet, and there's nothing to be done until it's now. pull it all back and focus on today. get through today. right this moment, what is lacking? this too shall pass.

keep your chin up, kid.

maybe this will help?

I've got nothing to offer. Except that I'm pulling for you. It trite to say "hang in there" but it's also true. You can do this, and I know it's hard, but you can do it.

I think you're right. Ortho is too strong to not pull through this...

Keep posting if you need to. We are here.

Doing better this morning, generally. Problems remain but I'm drinking water today (and tonight), not booze. For today, I will focus on my treatment. And on the lab and assignments due this afternoon that didn't get done last night ...

Sorry about the drama. Yes, thank you, the bunny helps ... have to save that one. I can never find things like that.

Thanks, guys. No more drama, I promise.

Ortho, you are not alone, even if there's no one in the room with you, you are not alone.

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Ortho, dear, you can be as dramatic as you like! Hell, you've had a pretty dramatic life already and earnt the right to express it how you damn well please. I second what Jim and others have said about about leaving the past behind you, it's done, can't be changed; and not to borrow trouble for teh future, or anything. The future is not your here and now. Just take today. Drink the water. Do the assignments. And know that we are all rooting for you.

Yeah, your ears could be broken...

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Ortho - you have many friends who care about you. They are your fellow dwellars here. If you needed anything, you know most of us would break our neck getting to you.

I truly care and I know many others do too. Opening up about your family situation was incredibly brave. I wish I had a tenth of your courage

@gravdigr

:) made me laugh. But I don't live in CO or WA.

Thanks for the good wishes, limey. I'm taking your advice. Finished chemo, have to get down to those assignments. At least the coursework keeps me busy. I have trouble leaving the past alone; it's what led me to where I am. But I know what you mean, I can't dwell on it like I did last night. Move forward. Have to keep it in mind, though, because if I took things day by day with the ex, most of the time things would be peachy. Just those occasional major zingers, like this week.

Thank you, Sarge. You're a good man, and you exemplify courage. I just hope last night wasn't tmi. Probably was. :yelsick:

Elton John > "I 'm Still Standin'" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHwVBirqD2s
Stop drinking alcohol. Your body needs to be alkaline not acidic to fight cancer. Take care of yourself. [/parent quote] :hug:

Great song! It should be on the Empowering Women thread.

And yes, I have stopped drinking. Last night was not a good thing. But thanks, you're right. :o