I was raised in the bible belt (and still live there)... so pretty much anything other then completely straight was considered bi. When I was young I used to get embarrassed because of how I would look at other women... and get turned on my thinking about being with them.
I enjoy having sex with other women, though I haven't had many women partners. I have noticed that a lot of women that were "bi" just wanted to kiss me in front of men (since men are so turned on by women kissing), and when I wanted to go somewhere private to get really intimate, it never happened. Except for a few of my girl friends, who weren't necessarily open about. We did all our kissing behind closed doors... ;)
Around here, it seems like the more open women are about it, the less likely it is that they are really bi. Few of the people I know now know that I am bi, or at least consider myself such. The funny part is, the only reason they don't know is because no one asks. But I think some people have suspicions... especially the ones that catch me oogling another woman. The female form is just so beautiful.
I don't think I could be in a long term, exclusive relationship with a woman though. It feels more like friendship, with extras. My really close girl friends are always the ones I want to sleep with. It feels like an extension of our friendship... a physical act to show I love them, in addition to it being sexually satisfying. It is just different than being with a man. I love threesomes... I think it would be much more satisfying for me to have a long term relationship with a man and a woman than just a woman. I'm not sure how to explain it... But when I'm just with a woman, it just doesn't seem as fulfilling as when I'm with a man. Maybe that means I'm not really bi? I feel like I am though. I get too much joy out of the female body (looking and playing with it) to see myself as straight.
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