Breakfast is no more than sludge in the septic tank now. Nice.

What's even nicer is the two year old standing next to you saying, "What's that Mummy. That's smelly.", but what makes is better is when you sit down on the bed afterwards and the same two year old climbs up next to you and says, "Are you ok Mummy? Let's have a smooch."

I guess I can just focus on getting more of the same at the end of all this.

The same goes for being incarnated as a human, for that matter.

Yeah that's true I guess. I suppose I just think that as humans we have more chance to change our circumstances, but it's not so easy for some.

She'll be worth every dry heave, darling.

Just found out yesterday about the news, ali !

Congratulations!

sundae, bless her heart, called and let me know! Good for you!!!

Just think of the baby as your Dark Passenger (hee hee hee hee hee!)

sorry you're puking but as sundae said, the darling will be worth it.

Thanks Bri. And let's hope so. lol

I had a 12 week scan yesterday.

There's only one in there and it all looks pretty good, so I guess we're on our way for real now.

I'm still feeling quite ambivalent about this baby. My heart is just not in it yet, but I hope it gets with the program soon. Maybe when it starts moving around it'll seem more real. Mind you, the illness I've been feeling has been enough of a reminder of the reality.

Anyway, onwards and upwards I guess.

Isn't that onwards and outwards??

hang in there Ali.. We're rooting for you.

It was the rooting that got me into this mess. :( But thanks V.

Maybe that's what V means... you should have outsourced the rooting to subcontractors, so that your liability was limited in the case of a chemical spill at the plant.

Abs had her 20 week scan today.
Boys. Both hale and hearty apparently.

So at least now I can look at wholesale bundles on ebay for the right gender...

Glad to hear all is well with you Ali.
Hope the sickies pass soon.
Any colourful dreams yet? Colourful in either meaning of the word ;)

Actually, I had a dream the other day that you were in. I can't remember the context really or any details, but I remember in my conscious mind thinking how weird it was to be dreaming a dream that you were in. That's probably what ruined the course of the dream. I think it had something do with us both being single and heading out for a night on the town.

I ruined your dream :mecry:
Ah well, there'll be others.

I dreamed the other night that I was looking after a coconut that had little aliens inside. I had to carry it everywhere and respond to its needs. It was like a living Tamagotchi. Very obviously about Abs and the family reaction.

When do you get pics?
Is that at 20?
That would have to make it real. And you would need to post them here to make it realler anyway.

I have pics from the scan the other day.

At the moment it just looks like an alien though. I didn't feel that, "oh look! It's my baby!!!" reaction when I saw it. All I could think was, oh well, here we go I guess. It didn't help that she had to do an internal scan (meaning up the whatsit) which really sucked.

All I could think of was all the indignities a woman has to go through just to have a child. I'm just not really in the mood for all the poking and prodding. I felt like giving her a smack in the mouth by the time it was finished because I felt so violated.

Stupid, but that's how I felt.

btw, it was shaping up to be a good dream Sundae. It's a shame it got interrupted.

So, for those of you who've missed my complaints elsewhere, I'm still throwing up all over the place.

Anyway, today I went do the doc for a check up and had a winge to her. She put me on maxillon to try and stop the vomitting, so I've taken my first one.

The troubling thing was that my BP is going up even though I'm on medication. 140/92 today. Anything over 90 is a worry when you're pregnant apparently. something to do with blood flow to the placenta. When I was pregnant with Max I was hospitalised a couple of times because they were worried about it, but the high bp didn't even start till the third trimester last time. If it's going up already and I'm on medication, it's not a good sign. So anyway, she upped my medication for that, so we'll see what effect it's had by Friday when I go to the ante natal clinic at the hospital for my check in/let's hear all about it appointment. Hopefully it'll be better under control by then and I'll be fine.

Anyway, just thought I'd give you all an update.