monster, you and Beest and the whole aquatic clan are my dear friends. I feel horrible right along with you. You all have my love from waaay out here. So, so sorry.

I will say little, but know that I feel it hard.

I can't imagine how hard this must be. If you need to vent, rant, wail, sob . . . know that we are all here for you.

:(

so soon. god.

Good day, Beest. I said Good Day.

sorry Monster. Let me know if you need anything at all.

Shit. I hate this for you guys.

Any day now. maybe today. it's like we suddenly plunged off a cliff. I'm so sad and lonely (but I don't want any other company). He's just sleeping, occasionally waking to shift position but ignoring me mostly. he knows I'm here and appreciates it, but just has other issues to deal with

and.... we did most of the necessaries -wills financial plan etc, but we didn't get to the passwords for everything. So I'mm'a need a good hacker. i wonder how good thor really is? he seems to accidentally manage to get round any app/game blocker we put on his phone
:D

(real worry, though, I don't know his email password -he had to change it and I never learned the new one....)

I keep checking this thread with a lump in my throat every time it updates. Your family is our family and I'm sorry.

ya know, I'll start another thread when he's gone, one that's straight to the point. so don't worry, cf. thanks all. i just decided to facebook message a group of swim mom friends and that was helpful. I felt less alone

Is banana lady here?

kind of.

she's in a hotel round the corner. My awesome sis helped change the short notice flights she had for April to immediate flights, but she was only supposed to be visiting while he could still spend quality time with people, but it's suddenly gone so fast.... He just wants to slip away quietly, just me here, no kids, no mom. No-one watching him when he looks and feels like crap. she leave thursday. allegedly. call me harsh, i don't fucking care. i want to spend all my time looking after and worrying about him, not her. She "doesn't want to be any bother" but she is

So sorry to hear this

We're as here as we can be hon.

Yep, I'm here too.

Be whatever you want. No apologies, no justifications, be, be with. You are all good.

We are here for you, and your family.