What Do You Have Mixed Feelings About Today?
 

I've been at this job exactly 3 years today.

It may all end tomorrow (double super secret meeting, damifino.)

I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon. It's a follow-up on my blood work. It will either be something or nothing. I don't know which worries me more.

Let's see, what else?

A flash mob appeared at a campus wide meeting...pretty funny stuff.

I get to go to my brother's cottage this weekend with the whole fam damily (except the adult nieces/nephews, they're all busy I think.)

I still don't have my heat on but I'm saving money on my gas bill.

OK, what about you?

i have mixed feelings about my quitting my oncologists appointments.

The weather.

My overall general health.

My lack of motivation.

My inability to do anything about the above things.

Why are you quitting your oncologist appointments?

too bloody expensive. I mean it - I will never get out from under these bills.

Never never never. I will die owing these people money even if I worked four jobs, full-time, sold drugs and won the lottery. I can't do it anymore. I can't go see her for another 200.00 for five minutes of her time. I can't. If I feel something, I'll go to my family doc. Oncologists costs big money.

I quit about a year ago when I couldn't keep up with the payments.

it's a gamble, but hey, isn't that what the free market is all about? the right to gamble with your health and self? Like Russian Roulette!

I owe every doc in this town, pretty much. it's disheartening. it's really a nightmare and I'm a lucky one.

Oh girl. That is the crappiest thing I've heard in a long time.

But, your family doc, is in tune with your issues, no?

200 bucks. Ridiculous. :(

I have mixed feelings about:
mixed drinks,
mixed vegetables,
and
mixed nuts (that would be you all). :p:

You should mix it up a little bit.

What are your feelings on mixed marriage? :eek:

(Ha! Is that even a relevant term anymore? I think we progressed beyond that one!)

Tell them to go f888 themselves. What are they gonna do, put the cancer back in you? Then put a flaming bag of dogshit on their porch and ring the bell. Hide in the bushes and watch. ETA: I'm not actually a lawyer, so I'm not sure if you could get in trouble for any of this.

You mean like a man and a woman? No, no one is doing that anymore.

My uncle had a heart attack a little over a month ago, and spent a good amount of time in ICU with no insurance and minimal income. At this point he's pretty much assuming he's going to have to declare bankruptcy, after he can actually stand long enough to get down to the courthouse. Honestly, I think he should. Is it an option for you, Bri?

Bankruptcy might be an option. i wonder if I can file for myself or do I HAVE to have a lawyer? Because lawyers are as expensive as oncologists...that's kinda why I haven't filed yet. :/

does your uncle own anything? like a house or car?

Nope. He's been teaching in China for the last several years, and it was sheer coincidence that the heart attack happened while he was in the States for 2 weeks sorting out visa paperwork for the upcoming year. He's living with my mom and still thinks he's going to make it back to China for the spring semester, but we all know that's ridiculous.

I don't know what the laws are in your state, but in Texas they can't take your home in a bankruptcy unless you own more than one.

A bankruptcy may cost you about $600 which includes the filing fee with an attorney. Find one that only does bankruptcies. {My SIL does these] 3 Dr visits >sigh< I think in most states they cannot take your home or car. Don't own more than one.

I have not been to a Dr in over a decade. They scare me...

I have mixed feelings about the spaghetti dinner I am making. Instead of pasta I am trying spaghetti squash. We will see....

Nirvana
I'll post a lengthy spaghetti squash thing for you tomorrow. I have to go to sleep now.

We've heard all about your lengthy spaghetti squash thing, foot. :lol:

:lol2:

Today: I still have a job! I have mixed feelings about this.

Seriously, I worked myself up thinking I was in some sort of hot water (for what I didn't know) because of a meeting today between me and my boss and the director and it was just about me taking over a process. Taking over stuff I LOVE to do.

What a maroon! :facepalm: My own worst enemy!

I still get my paycheck every 15th and 31st. ;)

I hope this won't cut into your Cellar time.

:lol2:

I spend way too much time here anyway. I get distracted, disgusted with the website, headachy...hey, let's go look at the Cellar! ;)

I have mixed feelings about having been in the Cellar since April of 2006 without ever having started a thread. While my quest for a Guinness World Record as the longest continuously participating member of a virtual community to never have started a thread is exciting, I'm concerned that if I achieve such status it will turn my head and I will no longer be the humble dwellar I am today. It's been said that some of life's more valuable lessons are learned in the struggle to achieve, rather than the actual attainment of goals which bodes well for me staying the course not to mention that I'm a model of self control for attention whores who start a thread about every thought passing through their minds (especially if they have mixed feelings about it). OTOH, I could begin starting threads myself and not have to wait on others to initiate timely discussions in which I might contribute significant knowledge or experience that helps someone else in their daily lives. The opportunities to serve fresh food for thought would not be delayed by a reliance on others to create the appetite. Sure, there's always the possibility of segues into new topics via thread drift; but, spontaneity suffers. Then there's a concern that if I begin starting threads now at this late date, I might try to make up for lost time and flood the board with OPs; or worse, that I'll become OP addicted and get swallowed up in the underworld of ME ME ME. Medical science has not yet developed a DNA test for predisposition to attention whoring and I wonder if attention whoring, like yawning, could even be contagious! I suppose that I'm destined for either great fame with Guinness; or, falling into obscurity when anyone does a search for threads started by me. It's extreme dwelling, pushing the dwellar envelope, going out on the Cellar fringe and still being here to tell about it ... albeit with mixed feelings.


Naaaawwwwwwwwwww, I'm simply not inclined to compete with those who just like to hear themselves talk.

Well, maybe once in awhile.

Nice.

You'll win the guiness prize for the most thinly-veiled insults, don't you worry your pretty little head about it. It's not as cool as, say, having stuff to say...but it's kind of cool. Like the guy with the 40 foot long fingernails: kind of gross, but kind of funny.

You seem to have mixed feelings about it. That was so easy. I say again ... :p:

;)

No, THAT was easy. :D

Easy is as easy does

and

Easy does it (again)!

Easy peasy Japanesy!

--Brooks Hatlen

Easy like a Sundae morning!

--Big Sarge ... he wishes

I didn't have an easy bake oven, but I had one of these. It made little round cakes.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi..._City_Seal.gif

I didn't live in The Big Easy; but, I went to the World's Fair there.

I don't like eggs over easy. Over medium is better.

I rarely covet another woman's eggs.
But those are making me very hungry.

I don't like motorcycles under 750 cc. I made 2 cross country trips on a Kawasaki GPZ 750 (4 cylinder) and was an easy rider.

http://motorbike-search-engine.co.uk...s-2/gpz750.jpg

A problem employee just resigned this morning. It's a bit of a scramble getting her all checked out before she leaves. Tying up loose ends, getting someone to cover for her, take over her work, etc.

But it's a pretty good thing that she quit, because she wasn't working out, and I bet we would end up firing her 3 months from now.

I have mixed feeling about that. Plus I'm sorry that it didn't work out with her. She was fairly new, and we had hopes she would be good.

Tax bill arrived in the mail today... due 11/15/11 :(
Household account bank balance is $300 higher... :right:

I think I'll mail the check on 11/11/11 just for luck
.

Fuck Cancer and Homophobia
 

Mom survived breast cancer but not liver cancer. It seems to hit everyone, so people usually cooperate where they can in fund raising as such. We had a "Play 4 the Cure" event locally. My daughter's field hockey team wore the pink socks and hosted a fund raiser and the coach, whose Mom is a survivor, invited the football coach/team to participate. When this stunningly beautiful woman asked the football coach if he wanted to participate his response was, "I don't want my team to look like a bunch of fags." Mind you actual hetero males never say no to this woman. We get our field mowed for nothing, her house got a lot of attention after the flood... so anyway I'm calling shenanigans, dude's in denial. On the upside, while his team was getting its butt kicked again some kid in pink socks got the front page sports picture in the press.

Yesterday's high was 80°F, but tomorrow:
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A Winter Storm Warning remains in effect until 6 PM MDT
Wednesday.

* Accumulation/wind... snow accumulations of 12 to 18 inches can be
expected by late Wednesday afternoon. Higher elevations and the
eastern slopes of the foothills may see local accumulations up
to 18 to 24 inches.

---
I'll be working from home.

Man up you pussy. Frikkin hockey players do it, asshole.
(Sorry Griff ... pet peeve of mine)
Thats my buddy behind the goalie, facing left.

That's just the blood that they couldn't wash out.

I'm very happy about a certain Dwellar's successful tree trimming escapade .

But I am seriously concerned about the possible inverse relationship
between recognized intelligence and an appetite for risk.
(with chain saws and electric wires).

Ladders are for climbing. Chainsaws are for cutting.
The former and the latter are not to be used in the same sentence,
or with one another in the same event involving human body parts.
.

Visited East Stroudsburg University with The Son yesterday. We've been to Juniata, Cabrini, and ESU, and will visit Harrisburg University on Nov 19. He likes all 3 that he's visited. It's a difficult decision.

I grew up in the Harrisburg area, and let me just say it is now a dying city. Recently it made news declaring bankruptcy. The last few times I've driven around it were just depressing.

HU is in the nicest couple of blocks in town... so if you don't want him to go there, get back on I-83 by driving up Market St and turn right on 13th. It's not that it's unsafe or even particularly ghetto, but what you find is a sad form of cheap, hardly-maintained city housing, plain uninspiring grey architecture and abandoned lots.

Middle-of-nowhere colleges might be a better choice just because they know they're in the middle of nowhere and have to produce their own culture.

Has he looked at West Chester? West Chester is a fine school ... good eduction, many successful graduates.

(and one of the best party schools on the East Coast)

I have mixed feelings about pensive pam's return.

Do you think she had the ban expiration date in her dayplanner?

Prolly in her Trapper Keeper.

I have mixed feelings about moving in with my friend Jim if/when the gang of 12 cuts medicaid, housing assistance, etc. My two major priorities are medical treatment and shelter. I might be able to save money by rooming with Jim except that he's got a big place and the utilities expenses are out of sight. On the other hand, I'd get free Internet and cable since he already has these things. Also, I could turn his backyard into a giganto garden next spring which would make a difference on the food bill. Plus we could go in together on an elk - he'd shoot it, and I'd cook it. But he has a dog and I have two cats. My meds will cost in excess of $400/month without medicaid. What to do, what to do...

(trapper keeper) :D

They don't have a biotechnology program.

I think Indiana U of P has out-partied WC, though I partied at WC when it was legal to have a keg in your dorm room. :)

It was never legal to have a keg in your dorm room. State School, State Property. It's like being in a State Park. Okay, maybe back when it was the West Chester Normal School, but I doubt it. I don't see the matrons looking the other way on anything back in the 19th Century.

The college president even had to go to Harrisburg to plead in favor of The Rat (Ram's Head Rathskeller) getting a liquor license, since there's a rule about not having a bar within a certain distance of a college campus. His argument, that he'd rather have his of age students walk to a bar, rather than drive to one, was successful.

I guess the RAs just ingored it then. It was pretty common and out in the open in the late 70s.

I suspect she just kept hitting F5 until she was logged in.

We should hook her up with a nice OWS camp.

I just spent $5,500 on boiler repairs and heating system upgrades. But I didn't have to replace the boiler, so that's a good thing.

Second Sunday at work in large chain of pharmacy.
Still things I am SO ignorant about, but handled the hours better.
Think I'm doing okay.
£25 to come, so it's all good...

Disappointed at the lack of training/ help though.

Last week I was told when to go on my break (although not for how long - I used common sense and asked of course)
Today I caused problems - so I overheard - for not taking my break at the scheduled time. I should have checked the timesheet. WTF? I didn't even see the timesheet last week, how could I know such a thing existed?

It's minor.
I cringed because I hate feeling ignorant and/ or being thought of as stupid (or a troublemaker).
But there have been a few little incidents like that. They forget I had one hour till training (on a training system!) and have been left to work the rest out myself, in a busy store, where there are constant queues and lots of unusual questions come up.

Shall I sign up for evening shifts which would bring in welcome money?
I think I should. I'm not that delicate a flower after all, and more time at work might bring more issues but experience brings knowledge and more work brings more MONEY!

Will check with my SIL tomorrow about signing up for extra shifts.
It might only be staff already rota'd can work additional hours.

Ripleys cheer competition.

5 hours so far.... Just getting the awards now

Proud of her and all.... But she was only on for 2 minutes.

Woo HOO! WTG Sundae. They're stoopit iggerant fux if they don't see that you are not being given the necessary training/support. Ask, ask, ask away with those questions (when you can!). Smile a lot (you have such a lovely smile, it'll make all those sick people at Boots feel 100% better straight away!)
:)

I missed this part about you working a new job. I hope you make oodles of cash.

J and J (who split up last year then got back together again, but with J living back in his own house) went looking at a house today. They're looking to rent a place together, and she will rent out/sell her little terrace, and he will give up the house he's been renting for the past 13 or 14 years.

On the one hand I'm really happy for him. Things seem to be going well, and this is a proper commitment, from both, with both taking a leap together. That's brilliant.

On the other hand I feel decidedly weirded out by the thougt of him no longer having the house down the hill. The one we lived in together when we were a couple, and the one where I've been able to visit him on foot on and off even since he and Jan got together. And a place that made it convenient on the occasions he visited here - no need for buses or trains, it's five minutes down the hill.

It's gonna seem weird him not having a place down there. His house, Martin's house and Mum's house have kind of been the borders of my immediate world for a long time.

I don't like change. Who does? I already don;t see him as often as I used to. We're both pretty busy people. But from time to time we get together and watch a marathon of watever show we're both into, either down the hill at his house, or up here at mine. And, that will all change. If he comes to mine to watch a show, he'll have to stay sober as he'll be driving. If I go to theirs I'll need to stay over because the last bus is so early in the evening.

It also means that when I visit, I'll be visiting them, rather than just him. Which in some ways is lovely. Jan's a good friend and I like the dynamic of the three of us. But at the same time, I will miss that other dynamic: chilling with my geek mate, talkin MMO and game development, or watching an entire series of Dexter across three visits :p

'S been a long time coming really. They've been together now for coming on 4 years. But J always kept his house on, even when he was living at Jan's. There's still odd things there that are left from when I lived there. And it will seem odd for that final connection to my own past to be severed. Especially since the yard is shared by two other houses including my brother's. So, I'll be going through the yard to Martin's house and someone else will be living in Jude's house.

Everything changes. But ... knowing it and being happy about it are two different things.

We are currently suffering from a Groundhog Day version of the bathroom refit from Hell. The workmen are all very nice, but the guy who built the house originally did everything himself and didn’t know what he was doing, which means that every time I have someone to come and do some work they are amused/appalled/stunned by what he did and any job takes far longer to do because of what he did in the first place. It will be lovely when it is done, but at the moment Handyman and Joiner are undoing the work of Tiler so that they can do the work of Plumber (who has gone to Las Vegas on holiday) and extend the pipes to fit behind the wall before they reattach the washbasin. I am anxious that they don’t spoil the work of Floorman (men, actually), and also hoping that it won’t be long before Electrician comes to fit the giant heated towel rail. I never thought that this little task would involve nine assorted tradesmen and their merry quadrille through our house at unexpected moments has been rather a trial, lovely as they all are individually and keen as I am to get the work done.

I hope you're taking lots of pictures of the work in progress, including before and after.

I have mixed feelings about the State Swim meet this weekend. Hebe made it to States as a freshman. I'm thrilled -that in itself is enough. And yet..... I will have to sit around for 6 hours (getting more and more nervous) to watch one one-minute race. Breaststroke is last, but seats must be acquired as soon as the doors open -two hours before the meet starts. Plus on Saturday, only the top 16 from Friday swim. She may get through, she may not. I have to make transportation arrangements for the other kids in case she does, but the silly superstitious streak in me says I'm damning her not to get through and if we've made arrangements to be there it will be all the more disappointing. I know, I know. But you know, I didn't think she'd get a state cut, so I said I'd dye my hair blue if she did. Superstition wins every time..... Ans I can't help but be nervous fo rher which is so stupid -she made it to Sates being there is a victory, even if she falls off the blocks. But then I look at the times for last year and I see she has a chance of making the last 16..... this perilous internet allows me TMI.


I guess this should be in the swim mom ranting thread. Just needed to put it in words I guess.