I give up
 

I hate school, I always have. Now I have to take full time college classes along with working full time so that I can afford those classes. I don't have time/energy/motivation to get the grades I need in those classes. I don't have a career I'm interested in, and I cannot stand writing paper after paper after paper. I'm burned out. Done. Fine`. All I want to be able to do is work (yes I like my job) and curl up in my boyfriend's arms every night. I can't even sleep with him regularly anymore now that he had to move back to his parents so that he could go back to school. He got in huge major trouble this weekend b/c we crashed at his house Sat. night after a party and we slept in the same bed. He's 21 for goodness' sake, he was drunk and we were only there to sleep. When he was on his own I could drive over to his house when I was feeling rotten and sleep with him. Now I don't even know how to get to his house, and even if I did' we can't do that. Renting a hotel room seems tawdry and forced. And the last time I really needed him at night (I'm a bit insominactic-- word?) I called and his answer? "Honey its late and we have class in the morning, plus where would we sleep together? I miss you but we can't." Its logical, but I can't do this any more. I need him.

Sorry, sometimes I freak out a little much. :redface:

Don't be sorry - I reckon that's normal. I wanted to give some meaningful and insightful advice when I read you first post, but "hang in there" sounded really shallow. That's what I think you should do, though. It will be tough, but it will work out. Good luck.

I know how you feel - I was a husband and father of three while working a full-time job and a part-time one AND going to college. IT totally sucks, but suck it up, get it done and you WILL come out on the other side alive. Now that I have my degree (two actually) no one can ever take that away from me and I am very proud that I did it. Oh, did I mention that my wife refused to work and cheated on me too? Whatever its over now and I am better for having gone through it. Hang tight and good luck.

There truly is life on the other side of school. It's just one of those things in life that suck so much when you're mucking through it but once it's done.. you're so glad you did it.

Keep your chin up, morethanpretty. As yesman pointed out, no one can take your education away from you. This hard work will someday pay off.

By the way, does your school offer free career counseling? I've seen many a student benefit from the services ours offers. Check it out if you haven't already.

:)

(and yesman? the wife who refused to work and cheated on you? Yikes. You're not still with her, are you?)

If you and he are in love and in it for the long run, then tough it out. There's plenty of time down the road to boff each other in the comfort of your own love nest. In the meantime, don't you have a car or friends with a place? :cool:

We have a car but our parking place is mired in mud :(
It would be weird to have sex at a friend's place dontja think (i do, besides we don't).
Yeah we have free career counsling, I have the brochure in my backpack, I just have to find time to go.
Well I had a convo w/ my b/f last night about my feelings and how I just wanted to quit. He pointed out that we only have little over a month left...doesn't seem so bad now. I have alot of catching up to do though. But the easy way isn't always the best way, so I guess I'll keep goin for now.

(MTP) You just muddle, push, drag, punch, kick and/or pull your way through it - You WILL be so much better off for it. I'm rootin for ya!! !! !!


Shawnee, thats a whole different thread. Actually I don't know for sure if I posted any of that story. Maybe I did in lookouts last year. ANYWAY, no believe it or not, she asked me to leave and I was gone within the hour. Now she is still begging me to come back. Needless to say, that is not going to happen.

Figured out what she lost, eh? Sorry, not trying to hijack, that just made me go hmm. Best of the world to you!

Yeah so I walked into my Humanities class on Fri. and discovered that I had a MLA paper due that day. I had a headache and had to work an 9 hr shift, and then had to work a double on Sat (with a headache) at work b/c Yo didn't want to close.
On the bright side...my b/f and I are seriously looking at places to move to, possible at the end of the semester...thats the goal anyway.

Hang tight - you're perspective on time will change as you get older - You are sooo very close, yet may not realize it. Oh and if you need any papers - I have a few "A" papers from my college days. They're to be used as "reference material ONLY" - of course ;)

What type of degree are you working on? I'm zero help with anything in the arts, but if it's at least partially related to science I can offer advice. I'm in an honors frat here at Pitt and one of the big things we do is tutoring/student counciling (admin figured that some students might take advice better from fellow students). We see kids in there from time to time with stories similar to yours, and we help them streamline their schedules so that they can make the most of what they have to work with.
Definately stick it out though, school comes to an end and parents can be sidestepped in due time.

9th...I did say this at first but I really should be more specific/clear. My only desire is to help people, I want to look into getting a degree in criminal justice, specifically to work in CPS, maybe APS. Alas b/c of my schedule I haven't really gotten a chance to really look into it. Ironic huh? Up until the very end of my senior HS year I thought I wanted to be a nurse. But I can say with confidence that I don't. I didn't even submit to going to college until about mid-July when my family finally wore me down. Its not really that I can't manage my time...its that I have it but don't utilize it properly. Also I'm so sleep deprived I fall asleep really easily and then don't wake up. The headaches don't help at all.

If you have anything papers over a specific culture I could probably use it. send to mlgtrumpet@yahoo. Don't worry about me plagerizing, I took a vow my senior year not to cheat, so far so good. BTW many of the higher ranked students in my class cheated and I did too (I was 6th in the end), up until a certain point. I'm not really proud of it but I'm also not regretful, it happened and I wasn't alone...sorta leveling the playing field I guess. My whole school had a problem w/ cheating, I saw it often in my peer tutoring class, I eventually gave up trying to stop it, although I had 2 students kicked out for disrespect. Its disturbing to see so much of it but I doubt that it is worse than in the past.

Any chance of lightening your class load next semester? It is important to keep working toward the degree and if possible getting work in a related field. You should make sure your strategies for studying are efficient as well by setting up your times and places to study and not to get hung up reading the Cellar when there's work to be done. ;)

Well I'd definately recommend moving heaven and earth to get caught up on your sleep, everything will take you twice as long otherwise. I'm just curious, but what made you so sure you didn't want to be a nurse? Summer after graduation is sort of an odd time to have a revelation like that. I don't know much about either CPS or APS, but try to be careful what area of law enforcement you get into if you really do want to help people. One of the law professors here was a DA before he quit in disgust. It's probably like in medicine, don't waste a good heart in it because it's guaranteed to be blackened by the experience:sniff:

I worked as a certified nurse's aid. I realized that even as a nurse you don't have much influence to improve a person's life only perhaps momentarily ease the pain. I hate abuse...there is nothing that disgusts me more and my goal is to try and make changes. I want to start in a law enforcement field, but I want to end up in law making/legislation. I think the experience that I could gain in a field such as CPS would give me a good perspective as to where the problems are. I already have a strong belief that the main issue is education. Children are innocent beings and their life should not be entrusted to whoever is able to get pregnant...just because your sex organs work doesn't mean your brain does. (I have a cousin with 3 children that proves this). I don't think that you should have to be approved to have children necessarily, but being able/willing to complete courses on child raising/parenting should be considered as a future requirement.

I don't want to crush your dreams, morethanpretty... but if you were disappointed at the ability a nurse has to improve people's lives, Child Protective Services is probably not the place for you to work.

Well I have screwed myself over quite well.
This is due today. Haven't started...have the class in less than an hour.

There is probably no where that is a good place for me to work. I'm lazier than LJ.

*pfffft* when the need arises you can have sex on the floor in a room full of people, and be perfectly ok with it. or a park bench. or a movie theater. or a bathroom at TGI friday's. or on the lawn. or... get the point?